I have been wondering for sometime now, Why do I feel sad when someone close to my heart leaves me. Then I remember the saying "You look back, You end-up laughing thinking of the moments you cried. But U cry thinking of the moments you had laughed" Very true indeed. The other day I was browsing through our college community on Orkut. I found some guys had uploaded links for photographs of our college. This was a real nostalgic moment for me. They had posted pics of most of our usual hangouts. I brought back memories of olden days(or is it golden). Each place had (atleast) one story associated with it, each a moment of laugh we had shared. One site led to the other and by evening I had browsed through 15 sites atleast. This covered every inch of Nitte.
Even after I shutdown my PC, I was still in my college. I could not think of anything else apart from that. Those sweet memories......
I also saw a couple of pics which had made me heartbroken then. These are the moments that make me laugh now. There were hundreds of pics which had made me happy then. I almost cry looking at them now. Why I am missing my college days so much. Why am I missing so many people. I try ignoring most of it telling " no, this is not important. That was just a phase in my life" But ignorance doesn't help. My heart knows its not true. By night I ended up having a heavy heart. I never know the meaning of heavy heart till now. Yesterday night while I was sleeping(trying to) my thoughts flying else where and suddenly I thought of my college, and I felt my heart going heavy.
I for once decided not to think of my happy moments in life. But now I have realised, that can't be done. people change with what is convinient to them. This makes some hearts, breaks many hearts. I had never understood Why this should happen. But I now know, I must have done this myself before. I have changed a hundred times to make my current being. One persons decision affects a bigger number of peoples' lives. I don't want these memories. 'Yeh joh yaadein hai, sabhi kaante hai. MiTado inhe. haTaa do inhe.....'
PS: Here I mention college days intentionally, but it must be replaced by many other things. Many other people to be exact.
Even after I shutdown my PC, I was still in my college. I could not think of anything else apart from that. Those sweet memories......
I also saw a couple of pics which had made me heartbroken then. These are the moments that make me laugh now. There were hundreds of pics which had made me happy then. I almost cry looking at them now. Why I am missing my college days so much. Why am I missing so many people. I try ignoring most of it telling " no, this is not important. That was just a phase in my life" But ignorance doesn't help. My heart knows its not true. By night I ended up having a heavy heart. I never know the meaning of heavy heart till now. Yesterday night while I was sleeping(trying to) my thoughts flying else where and suddenly I thought of my college, and I felt my heart going heavy.
I for once decided not to think of my happy moments in life. But now I have realised, that can't be done. people change with what is convinient to them. This makes some hearts, breaks many hearts. I had never understood Why this should happen. But I now know, I must have done this myself before. I have changed a hundred times to make my current being. One persons decision affects a bigger number of peoples' lives. I don't want these memories. 'Yeh joh yaadein hai, sabhi kaante hai. MiTado inhe. haTaa do inhe.....'
PS: Here I mention college days intentionally, but it must be replaced by many other things. Many other people to be exact.
1 comment:
Happen to read lines below years back. I hope it will tell you how to deal with people and memmories associated with them.
"People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime"
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent has been answered and now it's time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
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